Thursday, April 29, 2004

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ahhh well i didnt go to school i went to the game is was good sox one im crisped tho and like i could cook eggs on my face or any part of my upper body ill be in pain tomorro ... nto much to talk about im pretty tired itll be an early night if i can fall asleep

Thought of you at... |7:45:00 PM|

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Wednesday, April 28, 2004

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alright

ok dis morn i called aija so i could with her on the bus and i sat with her and we talked baouts ome KArazy shit ... lool it was funnie ... and then i went to school boreing then i went home and ate and i went to jeffs well everyone was calling my cell well dean called and now im not goin to school im skipping to go see a red sox game with him adn shari lol and da boys im excited and then like i went to da boys game and he won and then i gave my nana directions and my dad told me she wants to bring me to new york city how kick ass would that be like incredibly well i dunno what else im just wanting a hot guy like


OHHH MAH GAADDD john turner or just my old muffin back... sigh depression and broken heartedness i want adam ... not a john turner ...e ven if john turner is fucking gorgeous and like popular i would rather have my muffin cuz i knew that he loved me at one point awww .. im gonna cry i must stop and think about the future ... omg i hope adam calls me in da summer cuz i went to da baseball feild and i kept looking at adams house and reminising abotua ll the godo times i had with past bfs but adams house was right there and ijust wanted to run up the stairs and lay in his bed and wait for him to come home becuas ie odnt think he was home and wait and see him and just kis shim and tell him that i love him and want him back ... and he would be like what are you KArazy i dont love you i like older girls that can drive and are hott and iwould cry and be dissappointed and like be all sad ...

o well im getting over it all well nto but i can pretend now im out

love ya

Thought of you at... |7:55:00 PM|

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Tuesday, April 27, 2004

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Hallo wollte ich auf Deutsch sprechen und sehen, wem versteht, was ich
sage. Brunnen heute, nachdem Schule ich auf den Bus ging und ich sprachen
mit aija am Telefon ber das Buch in Deutschen. Dann ging ich online, als ich Haupt erhielt und ich herausfand, da Ryan's Geburtstag die Sekunde von kann ist. Ich fand Ryan heraus und Kristyn's Kompatibilitt
on-line-throught ihre Tierkreiszeichen und -ich ging zu ihrem Haus und
hing heraus . Dann half ich kristyn, ihre parascope Sache zu tun, aber meine Mamma
rief an und hatte mich Haus fr Abendessen, das es gutes und jetzt
i'm khles Materialon-line-Recht war?

lol idont actually no how much of that makes sense in german but o well lol i dunno .. im sad i feel bad for alex lol really tho ick i feel like and ass but i just dont like him i still totally have feelings for adam and its killing me damnit why cant i jsut get over him

love ya bye

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ok well i got a note from alex and this is how it went


sup,

as you probably already know im like the worst person to takl to but i can express my feelings better if i can rigte i already know you have feelings that im not your type i would too, i dont talk much, besides theres a much better side to me. this may sound a bit weird but better telling you then anyone else everyday while i was gone i missed talking to you ... or rather listening like i said im a much better writter than a talker i dont know what else to write so i hope you like this letter this way we can get to know eachother better as freinds ...

alex

lol ok so i though about htis note all day .. i forgot what i rote but he didnt sit with me on the bus so i just gavve him the note when he came on the bus in da afternoon yea ... it was something like yea how am i gonna getto no you if you can only right and stuff i duno it was kinda mean but i needed to be blunt like that .. umm nothing really exciting today cept that ... but watever im not worried uhh yea im gonan go now and talk to angie ttyl

love ya

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Monday, April 26, 2004

[[ok???]]

ok????

alright how much sense does this make ... well im doing a research paper for english on happiness ... the hole class is its a class assignment thing right ... well our teacher is helping us right it like by practically writing it for us well she did the first couple parts for us and she didnt finish giving us all of it ... so she assigns us to do the end ??? yea she wants it all to flow nicely together but its hard to do that when you dont have the middle part to flow from ... and i dont even no the last topic for the last section so yea im pretty much screwed i was hoping somone i love is online so that the could tell me at least what the last section was ... maybe i just wil do it first period i mean i do have related first ... o well but the only one that was here today was heather and shes the only one and my english class and i dont wanan hear her ... really o well ill just like wait till angie comes online ok now im done bithcing

ttyl

love ya

Thought of you at... |6:48:00 PM|

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candycanegurl 33: oh and Italked to my friend
candycanegurl 33: and he saud he saw you with aija
candycanegurl 33: I was like
michelle95839849: lol o funk
candycanegurl 33: my friend went to that show
candycanegurl 33: haha no but he talked about you too
candycanegurl 33: by friend Garrat
michelle95839849: oo i no him
michelle95839849: what did they say
candycanegurl 33: I was like my friend michelle went to thay show
candycanegurl 33: and hes like did she go with Aija?
candycanegurl 33: I was like yeah how do you know aija
candycanegurl 33: and hes like my friend chad knows her
michelle95839849: they didnt say anything abotu how aija or i was acting?
candycanegurl 33: nope
candycanegurl 33: richard said you called him a clebretity
candycanegurl 33: celeberity

lol yea the young kids talking baout me and aija i told her itd be around bartlett lol .. yea so umm alex asked me to go to some spaghetti supper on sunday and i said i dunno and then hes like o yea in two weeks im gonan go paint balling do you wanan go and i was like ... idunno

i really dont feel any connection between me and him ... its weird ... i no i should jsut come out and say ... i dotn like you ... but i dunno i just cant itd be really weird lol ... so im thinking next time he calls i will because ... idunno jsut hes too quiet and jsut not my type as much as he hopes to be ... he just gets too nervous and its like weird to meo well i wish i had aija to talk to this about .. o well .. umm in other news... umm there is no other news... ok im gonna go

love ya bye

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Sunday, April 25, 2004

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meeehhhh

omg im soooooo tired... but icant sleep because if i do i wont be able to fall asleep later and everyone is yelling im not haveing it ... jeeezzz nto cool and i jsut wanna relax and everyone is like jumping around ... oman and alex called me i dont really recall wat we talked about it was probably random crap that isnt fucking important i hate talking to people blah ... im tired ... o man im in such a daze and me and aija made an outline of the book visit it

http://lostandmisunderstood.blogspot.com

umm yea .... ok im gonna go now ttyl

love ya

Thought of you at... |5:55:00 PM|

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the night from hell ... well not really it was messed up tho

ok this is how it went down
... i woke up yesterday morning and my mom was doing a "deep clean" of the house ... so like as soon as i woke up i had to help clean like everything with ammonia ... then i stoped and was like i need pizza o i ate some ... then my dad was gonna take the boy fishing so i wanted to go so i didnt have to clean... right well dad said not to go into the tall grass ...well the boy goes in the tall grass... we get ticks everywhere ...i have like 3 mike have like 20 its was crazy ... istill have the jibbles from it ...eeeck ...

so anyways i get back to the house and i help my mom (after being scrupulously checked) yea then i get bored and shave my legs and watch some tv ... ashley called and shes like we need ideas on how this girl is gonna be picked on (stuff for improv) and i talked to her for awhile .. by the time i was done watching cartoons ... it was 3 ( the time i told aija to be at my house by) ... well i got ready and dube called and i bitched to him how aija wasnt here and how i was gonna kill her lol ... so then he gets off the phone wiht me and im just sitting waiting for aija to come .. she came at 430 lol ... yea so then we stoped at cvs before we went to the show to geta camera ... and that .... well yea so then we get to the show about 5 ... we do some stuff at 530 ... so i dunno 545 im like ... feeling like fear and loathing lol ... so i dunno we end up talking to these guys ... i thought they looked hot lol one of em looked like ashton kutcher i have pics to prove it lol i cant wait to get these pics.... its gonan be so weird ...riht so then i went in the show

and i got like a shirt lola nd i was like i wat a medium and the guy is like you want a small and thne i guess i was saying i wanted a large and the guy was like your as high as a kite and i was like teh watever dude ... yea like so then we run into rich funk and his girl and i was like omg its the famouse rich funk .. so the show starts and aijas like i have to go to the bathroom yea and thne like she went and came back ... and shes like im not feeling good im like well go to the bathroom ... she was in there like 45 mins so i got in there im like wat are you doing and she was like fliping out and im like aija comon dont be dumb shes like im sick im sick i need to go to the hospital ... and then i said no you really dont tho .. your fine you just overeacting so then finally i get her out of the bathroom for like 10 mins and im like wat the hell i finally get he back and get some food and water for her ... she was not doing good at all so finally senses fail comes on awesome ... like it was a good show cept the drama ... and we saw chad and lisa cody .. yea wat a cool kid : / lol and like i bunch of bartlett preppy kids that turned like punk yea thats the cool thing to do ok now im gonna go and see how aija is ... its still kinda early ... i no i left out alot of details il throw them in later lol but i guess the ashton kutcher guy seemed very interested in me he gave me a free movie ticket ... so cool lol o well ... hes from derry nh

ok im outtie

love ya

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Friday, April 23, 2004

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me and angie are gonna right a book about high school if you wanna read more about this fucked up idea that we thought of ... visit her site its on the right side of my blog under the linkage ... heres a song that goes along the same lines its by relient k its called hoopes i did it again

what's up dude? I'm getting kind of bored
let's get some food and then hit movies 4
what's going on?whats up with all our friends?
let's start a rumor just to find out where it ends

cause a small town is like a small stage
for teenagers and their drama
instead of playing shows, we'll be showing plays
like 90210 without the beverly hills

well, don't you think it's high time
what we never settle down
well, don't you think it's high time
that we get out of this town
cause if we leave then we just might be okay

hoopes i did it again
i messed everything up, and i think i hurt my friends
hoopes i did it again
relationships that work are things that i can't comprehend

ohio has the flavor of a water chestnut
it's not too crazy and it's not the best but
we're not setting forest fires just out of boredom
i'd rather see a movie if in fact i can afford one

well, don't you think it's high time
that we never settle down
well don't you think it's high time
that we get out of this town
cause if we leave then we just might make a difference
and if we leave then we just might be okay
and i don't think it would hurt to get away

dan bakitus said i'm shallow
he said i've got no integrity
but, i don't know dan bakitus
and dan bakitus, he don't know me

cause we always sayin canton
you can't enoy(canton joy) yourself
well, there's thruth to that
but may i add
it's not half bad
and never less than that.

Thought of you at... |7:20:00 PM|

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I just don't know what to do with myself
I Don't know what to do with myself
Planning everything for two
Doing everything with you
And now that we're through
I Just dont know what to do

I just don't know what to do with myself
I dont know what to do whith myself
Movies only make me sad
Parties make me feel bad
Cause I'm not with you
I just don't know what to do

Like a summer rose
Needs the sun and rain
I need your sweet love to feel all the way

Well I don't know what to do with myself
Just don´t know what to do whith myself
Planning everything for two
Doing everything with you
And now that we're through
I just dont know what to do..

Like a summer rose
Needs the sun and rain
I need your sweet love to feel all the way

I just don't know what to do with myself
Just don´t know what to do whith myself
Just don´t know what to do whith myself
I dont know what to do whith myself


yea some good ol' white stripeage

im bored and im "watching" colin and da boy ... not excitin i wanna do something ... and why does it have to be shitty out ... this must mean somone isnt sick anymore
o well i hope it gets nicer out ... alex never called altho i dont no if he was goinna or not now that i htink of it lol o well im not cool anyways buh bye

ttyl

love ya

Thought of you at... |9:42:00 AM|

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Thursday, April 22, 2004

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hola

feeling better

kids were good

umm my dad is bithcing and telling me the boy needs more attention than he has now ... not like he cares about how i feel

ttyl

love ya

Thought of you at... |10:17:00 PM|

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my disappointment knows no bounds ... seriously

yea so .. i duno i guess if i didnt have to babysit tonight my mom was gonna take me shopping even tho i was free to do that yesterday ... yea and wow... my life just like sucks its fucking gorgeous out and my mood its totally oppisite im not in the mood to deal with whiney brats... damnit why do i feel so hated

Thought of you at... |2:19:00 PM|

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You see me hanging round
starting to swear about this black hole of a dark field
and silently within hands touchin skin sharp
breaks my disease and i can breath

and all of your ways
all you dream falls on me
it falls on me
and your beautiful sky
the light you breath
falls on me


it falls on me ahha

i feel like a pain
it draws me in again
sqaushes all my worst of me
darkness in my veins
I never could explain
and i wonder if you have ever seen
and still believe

and all of your ways
and all that you dream
falls on me
it falls on me
and your beautiful sky
the light you breath
falls on me
it falls on me

am I that strong
to carry on
have i changed your life
have i changed my world
could you save me ahhhhha

and all of your ways
all you dream
falls on me
it falls on me
and you beautiful sky
the light you breath
falls on me
it falls on me

and all of your ways
all you dream falls on me
it falls on me
and your beautiful sky
the light you breath
falls on me
it falls on me
ahhhhaha yea ahhhah yea

falls on me - fuel

notice how it matches witht he words on the top of my blog lol

Thought of you at... |12:48:00 PM|

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im so confused ...

my horoscope makes absolutely no sense this week to me at all ... my life is all jumbled and i just want somone to tell me everything will be ok ... i just wanna be happy ... or just content ... even being content right now would be better than the mood of hate and depression that im in right now ... what the hell .. somone please just help me be happy ... im always pleading to people that arnt there ... but im trying ... and ill just sit here today adn watch jerry springer ... because all of my friends are sick ... i wish i didnt revolve my life around the wrong things ... o well im gonna go ... ttyl

love ya

Thought of you at... |12:08:00 PM|

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DISTRAUGHTNESS

YEA ... whatever.. its jsut that aija cant come babysitting with me because shes sick ... teh watever... i duno what the hell my problem is lately its just gonan suck without her ... i duno i talked to alex last night i never really got to discuss that letter he wrote me ... cuz i guess he had to eat or watever .. i dunno what im gonna do everyone is fucking sick its fucking rididculous ... i have a feeling that something bad is gonna happen at the show .. and its gonna suck more than this week has ... i hate this i wish ihad adam ... that statement makes me wanna cry ... everything makes me wanna cry ... what the fuck ...

o well

ttyl

love ya

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Wednesday, April 21, 2004

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holy fucking shit

dude alex called what a mother fucking surprise... "love its a mother fucker" lol yea old school lol i was all like finishing up babysitting and he called and i was like uhh hold on and then i talked for like half a sec and relized im wasting mins its not the weekend and iw as like shit call me at like 9 and hes like ok ... he thought that concert was tonight but it was last week duhhhh lol o well ttyl im talking to my love kristyn... o yea i hope aija dont call me at 9 lol

Thought of you at... |7:29:00 PM|

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am i invisible or ... do people just make me feel that way...

yea so today well the earlier part of the day was good ... i hung out with will he was tired so we went and bought energy drinks and rented amovie lol by the middle of the movie he was wired it was funnie ... we watched brother bear the only good parts of the movie involved the canadian mooses lol ... yea so then i had to leave cuz will had to work ... so i went to jeffs and cleaned ... well my dad walked in and was like im going to kmart wiht you mom and i was like can i come and we can stop at dots ... and my dad is like talk to you rmom ... so i run out and i aws like wait till im done working and ill come with you guys ... and shes like o i didnt even no you were home ... i thougth you were at will s... but i coulda swore that i told my mom that i aws going to jeffs... ridiculous and shes like well its not like you havent gone shopping lately ... well the truth is we did go shopping ... for easter i didnt get anything only the boy because i told my mom not to thne she told me that we would go to tjmax and we never did ... so yea ... wtf and no one is paying attention to me ... i need attention i thrive on it and no one is giving it to me ... when i had a boy friend they would pay attention to me but ... i dont go one so now i feel alone and forgotten like no one wants to pay attention to me because i am a peice of shit ... compared to like my brother ... yea hes fucking great i guess i dunno why my parents spend so much more time with him than me ... what the hell ... am i not fun ... maybe i dont cause enough trouble maybe ... im just not as annoying and dont get my way because im not fuckin annoying enough ... watever it is im not gonna fuckin change my slef to fuckin be what they want so that i interest them .. im their fuckin daughter ... i should be fuckin interesting even when i breath... watever im out the boy is pissing me off ttyl

bye

Thought of you at... |5:29:00 PM|

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Tuesday, April 20, 2004

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alright day ... if anything it was pretty good ...

this is how it went down ... nana came did her shit .. i babysat ... got paid ... helped blow up balloons ... got cake ... jaime and aija showed up ... jaime was fucked up... im proud of my self i no if i was like i was freshman year i would ahve been fucked up too but life isnt all about that ... its about helping meg and kristyns mom put together a party in five seconds and its about dealing with your problems instead of doing drugs to cover it up... its about ... having ice cream cake and not eating the hole thing ... alright im out
ttyl

love chell

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Monday, April 19, 2004

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thinking about ex bfs is totaly wearing me thin

jeez... well i think tomorro is gonan be a better day .. im supposed to do my nanas nails ... then babysit and help kristyn out ... teh anytime iwht kristyn is fucking great ... and angie is coming back ... hooray lol ... o well im sick of thinking baout the guys that broke my heart... i need to find my other puzzle peice ... i wihs i hung out with more guys that new guys taht were my type lol ... that would help out alot ... im all tired and btichy and listening to music and im gonna stay up late and watch some tv ... by myself ... at least dube was here to talk to online ... PROPS TO DUBE lol ... i feel bad for him having to deal wiht me and my pms rantings cuz i no even i get annoyed with it .. o well im gonna watch some high quality tele good day

Thought of you at... |9:07:00 PM|

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Eating snow flakes with plastic forks
And a paper plate of course
You think of everything

Short love with a long divorce
And a couple of kids, of course
They don't mean anything

Live in trailers with no class
God damn, I hope I can pass
High school means nothing

Taking heartache with hard work
God damn, I am such a jerk
I can't do anything

And I shout that you're all fakes
And you should've seen the look on your face
And I guess that's what it takes
When comparing your belly aches

And it's been a long time
Which agrees with this watch of mine
And I know that I miss you
and I'm sorry if I dissed you

Eating snow flakes with plastic forks
And a paper plate of course
You think of everything

Short love with a long divorce
And a couple of kids, of course
They don't mean anything

Live in trailers with no class
God damn, I hope I can pass
High school means nothing

Taking heartache with hard work
God damn, I am such a jerk
I can't do anything

And I shout that you're all fakes
And you should've seen the look on your face
And I guess that's what it takes
When comparing your belly aches

And it's been a long time
Which agrees with this watch of mine
And I guess that I miss you
And I'm sorry if I dissed you

modest mouse - trailer trash

its a good song lol ....

Thought of you at... |9:26:00 AM|

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tired... and lonely and shitty ... and pmsy

what the hell is that fuckin pmsy what the hell i coulda swore i only had my period like a fuckin week ago ... i dont understand ... i have no i dea what im doing to day ... i was gonan call angie to go for a runn but ... i dunno ... if she is even home i duno and im fuckin tired and in need of somone to love me ... ok im gonan go before i start crying love ya ... chell

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Sunday, April 18, 2004

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holas chickos...

alright day .. like this morning and early afternoon sucked i was alone and dube volunteered to come out to webster to play with me but i told him not to cuz i was going out at 3 .. so at 3 i went out with ash and we went to walmart and i got the hottest hat ... we didnt go out to dots but my mom said she might take me out some times this week ... i have to pay my dad for my phone bill ... which i really dont wanna ... o well ... and like i cant believe how much ive been thinking baout adam lately like i thought i could and did get over him but i guess i havent ... now that ive been alone this weekend i relized how much ... like fun i had with him and how many great memories i had with him ... even just stupid stuff like when we would sit in walmart in those chairs and watch like the lava lamps lol ... o well but hes got that girll and i got my hand i gues ... damnit its just not the same lol jk ... sigh ... i wish i could just like get him back and like have him love me again but i no that wont happen ... he never will love me again

Thought of you at... |6:54:00 PM|

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holy muffins im thinking of my ex muffin : /

damnit all why cant i stop thinking about him ... i just like wanan call him and ask him if he wants to play with me cuz fuckin no one else will ... and my dad walks in and is like i talked to adam ... and im like thats cool and i got all teary what the fuck why am i so like ... hung up over him ... its fucked up ... cuz hes nto and its realy hurting me ... and i no no one cares anymore but i do ... what the fuck ... sigh ... i least i still ahve my journal to bitch in cuz im trying not to bitch to my friends too much because ... i dotnw ant what happened to me and adam to happen between me and my friends ... because without my friends i would like be all weird and crazy ... er yea so i duno im all depressed and such im still excited for the show ... wow i havent like wrote this much about adam in a while ... FUCKING ANYWAYS


yea so me and kristyn were talkinga botu shows we wanna go to and i definately wanna see thrice and dc and the warped tour omg i like 20 bands that are like going or watever like kristyn sent me a list and kristyn wants to go because the sounds and somone else is playing lol and shes gonna think about not going to the vines and go to the warped tour instead and iwas like hell yea it would be aweomse but she said she had that john may may show the day after what the hell like htat is even gonna be that bad lol o well i think im gonna do something .. but i guess me and ashely might be going to dots with her mom if she ever calls me back ... ok ttyl

love ya

chell

Thought of you at... |10:19:00 AM|

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Saturday, April 17, 2004

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Daily Horoscope

Weekend Update: Friday is busy and may feel kind of thrown together, no matter how organized you try to be. Don’t expect things to neatly fall into place – and forget about sticking to a sensible schedule or routine. Last minute changes, including cancellations, may occur. Just brace yourself and remain philosophical. Keep in mind that any upcoming change is probably a good thing. Saturday begins with a set of expectations that may be tough to live up to. Don’t box yourself or others into an impossible corner. If you’re counting on others to behave a certain way or do a certain thing, you may be disappointed. It’s best to just clear your mind and let things happen as they will. Give up pointless control fantasies and try to live in harmony with your surroundings. Minimize stress and noise every chance you get because your nerves are already pretty raw. Saturday night is your reward – pleasing and very enjoyable. Sunday has even more to offer, especially if you’re creative. Inspired and imaginative, you rediscover your muse and move forward with an important project.


yea i no lol its fuckin gay i hope tomorro is good... well i was looking up compatiblity on line between signs and it says that i would get bored witha scorpio and his hermit life style but i would be transfixed with him for ever ... and im compatible with an aquarius ... so if you are an aquarius fuckin ... call me lol yea ok bye

Thought of you at... |10:06:00 PM|

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hola

hey .. good day hung out with ashley ... i was irritated tho that no one wanted to fucking play basketball with me FUCK ALL YOU GUYS THAT DIDNT ... not ashely tho shes soo coolim going shoping wiht her fuck all you sophomore types the freshmen are where its at ... ok im gonna go and watch a movie ..

love to all that played basket ball with me instead of like hangiung out with sophomores (teh not cool)

chell

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Friday, April 16, 2004

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hey all

whats going on.. im jsut chillin mrs. lew isnt here so now im just sitting here and she told mr grenier ( it hnk that how you spell it) to jsut give us the flow chart and the printerspacing chart to do ... yea so no one is doing any work the majority of the class is playing mario.. .i was but i got to frustrated ill finish after lol ... yea im listening to pink floyd ... its calming me down some lol ... ye aso i dunno what imd oing this weekend im supposed to watch movies with will and dean wanted me to baby sit ... fuck yeas i cant wait until next weekend for the rufio show its gonna be incredible ... yea i need to get my work done... i wonder what im gonna do after school ... i think i have to go to my nanas but ... i dunno ill just go there and see whats up ... yea so i duno where angie was this morning but she wasnt her for me to give her money to her ... yea so now img onna go and like try to concentrate even tho i no i wont ok im gonna go ... buh bye


love ya

chell

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Thursday, April 15, 2004

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ok ... early night ... and the boys were good angie took care of em it was cool umm ... im not tired and .. iwanna talk to someone ... dube is talking to me now lol ... o well img onna go ttyl bye

i love my typing skills toniht

Thought of you at... |8:37:00 PM|

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hey i no my last post was long so dont worry i just rote it so that way i can look back at it ... so umm this is a thing ive seen before but i just seen it again and i wanted to show it to you

All I really need to know I
learned in kindergarten.


ALL I REALLY NEED TO KNOW about how to live and what to do

and how to be I learned in kindergarten. Wisdom was not

at the top of the graduate-school mountain, but there in the

sandpile at Sunday School. These are the things I learned:

Share everything.

Play fair.

Don't hit people.

Put things back where you found them.

Clean up your own mess.

Don't take things that aren't yours.

Say you're sorry when you hurt somebody.

Wash your hands before you eat.

Flush.

Warm cookies and cold milk are good for you.

Live a balanced life - learn some and think some

and draw and paint and sing and dance and play

and work every day some.

Take a nap every afternoon.

When you go out into the world, watch out for traffic,

hold hands, and stick together.

Be aware of wonder.

Remember the little seed in the styrofoam cup:

The roots go down and the plant goes up and nobody

really knows how or why, but we are all like that.

Goldfish and hamsters and white mice and even

the little seed in the Styrofoam cup - they all die.

So do we.

And then remember the Dick-and-Jane books

and the first word you learned - the biggest

word of all - LOOK.

Everything you need to know is in there somewhere.

The Golden Rule and love and basic sanitation.

Ecology and politics and equality and sane living.

Take any of those items and extrapolate it into

sophisticated adult terms and apply it to your

family life or your work or your government or

your world and it holds true and clear and firm.

Think what a better world it would be if

all - the whole world - had cookies and milk about

three o'clock every afternoon and then lay down with

our blankies for a nap. Or if all governments

had a basic policy to always put things back where

they found them and to clean up their own mess.

And it is still true, no matter how old you

are - when you go out into the world, it is best

to hold hands and stick together.



-Robert Fulghum


Thought of you at... |11:12:00 AM|

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awesome show

its gonna be a long post so i hopeyou have no life lol which im sure you do

ok this is how it went yesterday ... took the bus to angies ... and bear kristyn meg and her mom where all there lol waiting in angies fucked up room its al fucked up alright so then like kris's mom is like alright lets go we have to drop me off at angies gramas right so then like we wait for aija for like 20 mins (well not really but i was impatient) well then we get in the car and go so then we separate and me and kris go with bear to her house while angie kristyns mom and meg all go to angies gramas ... well we chilled for ahiel and then we finally go back together in the car ... there was much debate on how we were gonna get food and that during the car ride to the palladium ... well we finally get there and then we decide that bear and kristyn are going to go get some food at the mall or wherever they went lol so me and angie waited in line ... and waited and waited ... and hour lol i didnt bother me it was funie ... this one kid tried to open one of the doors and like he go his finger hurt and he was asking people for ice ... yea and a shit load of people were looking for tickets ... and like i asked 5 times ... so then eventually bear and kris get back with my pizza and angies sandwhich ... ok so then like after we ate the line got all scrunched up ... so it started sprinkling it was a half hour till the show ... so we started playing like bubble gum in a dish and like potatoe and then like we played rock paper siccirs .. kristyn is awesome at those games lol ... so then we played charades WOW kristyn ... some of the shit she did made no sense lol ... yea so then we get in finally it was pouring by the time we got in LIKE DOWN POURING YEA ... so anyways lol we are soaked and angie was like come on the floor with me please so i did like before the show started and i was like dude i would stay if i liked the opening bands but like it denali and i dint no them ... so then i went back where kris and bear was and stood by them they had a good veiwing spot awesome like you could see everything and it wasnt far away like you could see all the people on the floor ... so anyways ... the show starts and its not bad ... some guy that sung like a goat started he sung some song and he was saying how he had a wold mouth and i was like hes like a goat mouth lol ... so then denali came on they were good there was a chick lead singer it was cool ... but... lol her voice was really kidna high pitched so like they had the volume like so high and i thougth my ear drums were gonna explode like holy shit lol ... it was good tho ... angie was still on the floor ... things were starting to get rough down there ... like some moshing started and like that ... so then piebald comes on holy shit i was so scared for her they were awesome awesome awesome ... so like now people are all crowd surfing im like i bet angie is in like a fetal position or it could be oppisite and she could be like tyring to crowd surf lol ... yea but they were good ... ok so brand new comes on OMG AWESOME FUCKING GREATEST SHIT EVER BETTER THAN THE LAST TIME I SAW THEM ... yea so then it was crazy down on the floor like omg and i was like poor angie i hope she survives lol ... so like i feel a tap on my back ITS ANGIE holy crap lol she lost her fucking shoes lol shes like i wanna go back in but my feet hurt ... so then i saw like a shoe on the stage i was liek angie is that your shoe and shes like omg i think it is and i was like hell yea your shoe is on stage ... but i dont htink i really was her shoe lol ... so anywas she goes back on the floor fucking retard fucking awesome show ... so then its over OMG AWESOME SHOW ... lol anyways it was crazy all these people were buying all this shit and i was like not having htat so anyways ... i went and helped angie find a shoe and we left we were outside and we bought some drinks and kris bought a fucking sausage lol ... yea and angie was talking to some guy lol i was like what are you doing retard and shes like talking and i was like o ... and then bears mom picked us up and i got home at like ... 1130 i ddnt fall asleep till like 1230 tho because of the ringing in my ears ... im gonna be deaf by the time im twenty ... ill leave you with this quote

"We saw the western coast.
I saw the hospital.
Nurse the shoreline like a wound.
We paint a lover's tryst.
We're neither clear nor descript.
We kept it safe and slow.
The quiet things that no one ever knows.
Keep the blood in your head and keep your feet on the ground.
Today's the day it gets tired.
Today's the day we drop down.
Give up my body in bed.
All for an empty hotel.
Wasting words on lowercases and capitals.
I contemplate the day we wed.
Your friends are boring me to death.
Your veil is ruined in the rain.
By then you like to do without.
There's nothing new to talk about.
And though our kids are blessed,
the parents let them shoulder all the blame.
Keep the blood in your head and
keep your feet on the ground.
Today's the day it gets tired.
Today's the day we drop down.
Give up my body in bed.
All for an empty hotel.
Wasting words on lowercases and capitals.
I lie for only you. And I lie well. Halleluh.
Keep the blood in your head and keep your feet on the ground.
Today's the day it gets tired. Today's
the day we drop down.
Give up my body in bed.
All for an empty hotel.
Wasting words on lowercases and capitals"

love ya


chell

Thought of you at... |10:28:00 AM|

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Wednesday, April 14, 2004

[[ahh]]

ono im like gettin sick that show is tonight i feel liek im gonna puke .... ive been downing rolaids like ... i dunno candy?? yea i really feel sick yuck i cant wait till tonight tho maybe by then ill feel better after i eat something ... eww yuck my throat hurts ... o yea and this program im doing blows wicked bad i dont get it and now steph is rewriting it ... damn my head hurts somone please get me some tylenol ok i gotta go ttyl

love

chell (i hope i dont get sick before the show)

Thought of you at... |11:03:00 AM|

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Tuesday, April 13, 2004

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i wanna jump off a bridge everyone is driving me FUCKING CRAZY I SWEAR TO GOD I FUCKING HATE EVERYONE IN THIS HOUSE... THEY NEVER FUCKING PAY ANY DAMN ATTENTION TO ME BUT THE FUCKING INTAGINIZE THE BOY EVEN THO THEY NO IT GETS BE FUCKING PISSED I FUCKING HATE EVERYONE AND IM PISSED CUZ FUCKING AIJA LOST HER FUCKING TICKET WHAT THE FUCK FUCK EVERY I HATE YOU ALL



Okay, so who doesn’t own a cell phone
Who brought back their permission slip?
Because I know, nobody wants to stay home
While the rest of us go out and make a day of it

Cuz theme parks are so much more fun when the sun’s outside
And I lost my phone to the lake beneath the Batman Ride
The start of something, I don’t wanna begin it
They’re looking for trouble, but with me, it won’t be found
And I regret that I’m completely out of daytime minutes
And So I guess I’ll have to wait a lot till 8 o’clock comes around

Okay so, who doesn’t own a cell phone?
Well I don’t need to ask my friends
Because I know mine was bustin’ up my jaw bone
Thanks to all those nights and weekends

Cuz theme parks are so much more fun when the sun’s outside
And I lost my phone to the lake beneath the Batman Ride
The start of something, I don’t wanna begin it
They’re looking for trouble, but with me, it won’t be found
And I regret that I’m completely out of daytime minutes
So I guess I’ll have to wait a lot till 8 o’clock comes around

When it comes to relationships (I’m the dumbest one)
And I don’t mean just with girls (I mean with everyone)
Your illustrations always point out just what's wrong with me
It’s chapstick, and chapped lips, and things like chemistry

It’s chapstick, and chapped lips, and things like...
It’s chapstick, and chapped lips, and things like...
It’s chapstick, and chapped lips, and things like chemistry

Can I relate to you the way you relate to me?
Can you help me out with my chemistry?
I don’t wanna be perceived the way I am
I just want to be perceived the way I am

Thought of you at... |7:28:00 PM|

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yea well now im just chilling while steph writes some code ... lol it took me so long to do like the headings lol terrible terrible lol o well id ont care i htink lew is gonan give us another day on htis program which would be fantastic ... too bad we will probably get one the day after the show WHAT THE HELL???? yea so anyways i think i have decided ... i dont think alex is as weird as he seems ... i dont no what else i think right now ill finish that thought later ... my head hurts and i like wanna sleep ... yea i have to work not fun and htne i dean keeps texting me and like hes like call me and im like yea cool kid im in the middle of class lol o well im gonna go and touch my self on the interent

Thought of you at... |11:22:00 AM|

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i wanna die im so damn tired

AHHHHH I DONT WANNA DO WORK but all i have to do is right the code which isnt bad yea im exhausted omg my eyes are so heavy.... yea and that show is TOMORROW horrayyyyy... aija still cant find her ticks damnit ! so now when bear and kris go back stage ill be all alone on the floor ... o well ok im gonna go and get my self ready for another funfilled exciting day ... sigh

Thought of you at... |7:56:00 AM|

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Monday, April 12, 2004

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yea ... i dunno ashley called shes so cool lol i wish i could be cool : ( LOL im serious tho .. o well kris came over after school ... HRMMM i guess lol o well ill talk to you later

Thought of you at... |7:49:00 PM|

[[yea]]

shit dude i totally forgot my note from alex omg its kinda creepy in a like sweet way i suppose like ... i dunno some people are like aww michelle thatis the sweetest thing i have ever read and some people are like omg htats so weird he doesnt even no you ...teh i dunno what to do so later on ill just retype the note on here so everyone can see and tell me what the think... im thinking about making a poll lol to see like really itll be like

click yes if you think i got a new stalker lol itll be cool... i dunno but i guess hes gonna call me i think ... mayeb he thought i was gonna call him ........ o well i dont care ill just liek ... whatever i just like need to get to no him i guess... i dunno im really not ready for aguy ... i just want to be free... lol thats corny lol ... i just wanna be able to like run around and not have to worry about flirting wiht other guys and stuff and not hurting my bfs feelings CUZ I DONT HAVE ONE LOL yay i like this freedom its nice ... but its kinda lonely ... when i get too lonely ... i probably stil wont wanna guy but ill just have to make some new friends ... speaking of new friends ... all of wills friends are really cute but the are all like 6 years older than me and that lol ... o well id otn care im not looking ... its weird cuz like im not looking but somone wants my nuts ... i wonder how many other people ... want Me lol yea im cool you all are sooo jealous ... well i gotta go ill ttyl

love ya

chell

Thought of you at... |9:44:00 AM|

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Sunday, April 11, 2004

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HAPPY EASTER???

yea 5 uhh yea my blog is being weird i hope this works ... ok well this morning aija called me at like 10 !!! lol yea i was up til like 1230 talking to joe so i was not gonna be a morning person today ... well she called and was like alex left this letter with me to give to you ... and i was like yea i bet he did that cuz i kept not answering the phone lol i was in such a daze cuz she woke me up lol ... anyways so she read it (ill show you the letter later when i go and get it) so anyways umm it was soo cute and like i felt like such an ass for blowing him off like when you read htis you would be like omg michelle youa re the biggest bitch ever invented... but i dotn htink you can just invent a bitch like athat but what so then like i got off the phone with her and i layed on my bed for like 3 hours lol and then i called will and was liek shit dude i was supposed to call you and he told me about what he did and it was funnie lol hes so awesome i love will lol ... so yea im gonna go for a walk with will aftethis like brunch deal that im having iwth my family aww so awesome and my nana got me a manicure set ... so cool im gonna have aija do my nails lol yea ok im gonna ttyl

love ya

chell

Thought of you at... |1:13:00 PM|

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Saturday, April 10, 2004

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yea lol still weirded out

helly yea i hung out with kris and played games and watched school of rock funniest fucking movie lol yea so umm yea im tired but i dont wanan sleep the easter bunnie is gonna come tomorro lol lol yea o well im gonna go and touch my self while i talk to joe lol ttyl

love ya

chell

Thought of you at... |11:38:00 PM|

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ok maybe i over exagerated about my mom

yea so my mom wastn tweaked and she said she would think about letting me go to the rufio show which is awesome i hope she brings us lol that would be cool lol and then like i got up had steak for breakfst go changed and my mom took me and da boy to kohls no one liked anything there and i dont like that store too many memories yea so last night i felt bad and now that i think about it ... i cant think about it its gives me the jibbleys jeez lol really tho if you were in my position and you were me like you would understand and i no alex is like so nice and that but ... yea he needs somone thats not like me ... AT ALL so now im waiting for kris to take a shower so i can chill iwth her hooray i cant wait till the brand new show on wednesday its gonna kick ass ... too bad aija cant find her tick i should call her and tell her to find it ... i think ill do it now ...(calling aija) ring... ring... ring... talking to angie now ...ono the ticket can not be found lol yea in the middle of talking to aija alex like interrupted and iw as like ok hey and hes like hi and i was like umm im on the other line and its an important phone callill talk to you later and i hung up ... im so terrible ... o well i have to go and touch my self cuz i dont have a guy that will do it for me : ( lol o well bye

ttyl

love ya

chell

Thought of you at... |3:08:00 PM|

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Friday, April 09, 2004

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holy muffins what a effed up day

alright let me begin this holy crap holy crap ... im so weirded out

ok this is how it went now lol this morning i woke up and took a shower and i called aija and like i met her half way and then she helped me pick out cloths so then i told my dad where i was going and wat i was doing and left so then i went to the bank to cash the check i got from sue lol and i forgot my b-day lol and i couldnt find my s.s. card so i was like what the fuck lol so i just gave the lady my id lol

yea so then iwent to aijas to help her clean up and that and her bf came and hes cool and that so then like angela randomly showed up and started talking aboutg etting some blunts and i was like yea thats the cool thing to do and then she left i was releived... then the weird akwardness began holy shit

alex called no surprise i guess lol considering the fact that he was gonna come with us lol yea so then we met him half way and he gave me a bracelet cool... but ive only known him for like 5 days ... yea ... hes really nice but i dont think hes really my type lol but anyways... so we went to aijas and hung outa nd that and decided to go to burger king because it would be a while till we could get a ride to the movies... we didnt actually relize how long... yea

so anyways we went and i got a soda and thats it im not realy hungary today watever so then i brought of the brilliant idea to go to the beach everyone was like yay lol (o yea i forgot to mention im wearing a skirt and like a low cut shirt and a thin hoody with my purse) lol yea so we end up walkin al through the woods and the much yeanot cool lol even tho it was my idea i didnt think they would go along with it lol yea so anyways eventually we all get are fat asses back to aijas and like we sit around and watch tv ... well it was more like akward silence between me and alex while aija and dube made out in her room ... whatever

yea so then eventually i was like when are we going to movie and i was getting pissed and stuff cause my mom called to ask what was up and like all that and i told her i didt htink id be home for supper and she was all suspicious like iwas doing something bad ... which i really wasnt yea so then aija was like lets go to may street ... we didnt her mom came home and then tanya like appeared and i guess she was going too lol i was left outta the loop bye this time like 3 people i dont eve no called my phone for aija ... hwere they get my number i have no idea ... well then like we left all 5 of us and her dad in the car ...

yea we were late to the movie it was good we saw starsky and hutch it was good ... but after the movie ... i different story right well during the movie jamie called and i was like ok and then i put my phone on silent lol and my mom called so then i called her back and she is like are you on your way hoime im like i just got out of the movie now we are just about to call her dad to pick us up and she was like ok (this movie seemed like we watched it for like 15 mins seriously) lol

yea so then we waited ... and waited and waited ... and waited and i walked around wiht tayna and alex and then i walked around iwht aija
watever

alex is so quiet its like really scary and when he says stuff he stumbles and gets embaressed am im like yea ok ... you dont have to get all tweaked ... and like finally her dad came after like everyone used my phone at least like 4 times each and like nick porter called my phone luryan called my phone jamie called my phone and more i think and like who noes who everyone else was calling im so scared to see all of my mins but anywas

yea so i was in the car with alex i was heated i no my mom isnt gonna be happy and shes not gonna let me go to the show that aija bought me the ticket for fuck ... and alex was like are you gonna be able to go out tomorro and i was like probably not and even if i do its not gonna be far and hes like o... yea lol the dreaded out ... and then like 10 mins later ... BRACE YOUR SELF ... (i wish i coulda) he was like michelle i wanted to ask you out tonight ... and i was like FUCKKKK hes not my type at alll lol i mean thats not funnie thats sad cuz i was like umm i cant now im still tryign to get over adam and that and im just not ready for that type of thing yet... i felt liek shit i still feel like shit and i am dreading tomorro morning when i have to face my mom OMG im gonna die o well

i think im gonna go to bed holy muffins

love ya

chell

Thought of you at... |9:55:00 PM|

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Thursday, April 08, 2004

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OMG AWESOME DAY


i love everyone and everything especially the cool kids .... yea so i talked to alex on the phone hes like wicked nice and stuff aww and aija got me ticks to see ... i duo who but i guess i have ticks o well im in such a spiff mood omg lallalalalala yay

Thought of you at... |10:49:00 PM|

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Wednesday, April 07, 2004

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holy muffins check this shit out

todays horoscope

Before you make any rash decisions regarding a current relationship, think about it. You, above all signs, require a thousand percent of someone's devotion. If they're not quite ready to offer it, keep quiet for just a bit longer.


lol wierd right

and now look at tomorros

Whoever it is who's been stalling all your best-laid plans should definitely not be allowed to continue doing that any longer. Go right ahead and insist on a decision.

lol i no its weeeiiirrd
ok bye

Thought of you at... |8:15:00 PM|

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o yea


today i went on the bus and alex talked to me TALKED omg lol yea he seems pretty cool but it seems so fake like people are telling him wat to talk to me about lol i think angie and his sis might have something to do with that and then school was cool and that and then after school alex asked me wahat i was going on friday and like i was like im going to the movies with aija and her bf umm i need somone to come with me and then i paused and was like do you wanna come so i dont feel like such a third wheel and he said sure so thats cool and i told him id hammer out the detials later


yea so now i just found out that aija cant comeover on thursday (which is tomorro) and sleep over what the hell thats sooo gay damnit i love babysitting with her lol she makes babysittin fun lol o well i wonder why im trying to ask her but she wont answer me damnit o well im gonna go ttyl bye

Thought of you at... |4:54:00 PM|

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Tuesday, April 06, 2004

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ok im confused ...

ok its been awhile since ive talked about such things as this but i feel like im being pushed like yea i wanna get over it and all and stop dwelling but get in to a new thing entirely is totally different ... but watever i maybe over reacting like right now i just wanna meet new people and see what the other half lives like ... i no i probably wont live like this for long lol but o well .. i feel so akward talking to new people tho like im cool with just going up to people and talking to them but when they come up to me its like ... umm : / lol what are you doing yea so its not the way i play the game ... dun dun the game of love ... lol i no that was corny but i no you all love me for it anyways o well im gonna go to bed im exhausted from the like stuff watever ttyl

love ya


chell

Thought of you at... |9:17:00 PM|

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yes

aija totally helped me clean my room its totally spotless... i so owe her one ... i cant wait till friday ... i think ... but i guess ineed to talk to alex lol some more lol o well umm im all like in a good mood
and like motivated o well


i have to go and touch my self

ttyl bye

love chell

Thought of you at... |7:24:00 PM|

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UHH YEA SCHOOL...

umm yea nothing exciting ... really cept ... alex??? sat next to me ... hes the one that likes me ... or people say he likes me i dunno why lol but he sat with me this morning and i was confuesed cuz aija and jess walked right passed me and i was like where you guys going and i was so confused lol but then he sat with me and i was like ... ok ??? and then like i didnt talk the hole bus ride cuz like i was tired and thought i was ognna die of puking and then like all day i was like that cuz i dint sleep at all and then like this afternoon i kinda talked to alex and in chem today like lynn and mel where lighting shit on fire so then after school i hung out with aija and i was like ask alex if he wants to come to the movies if we go ... yea lol so i duno i g2g help her cut her hair

Thought of you at... |5:03:00 PM|

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Monday, April 05, 2004

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uhh yea....


umm yea ... i guess some kid on the bus likes me .... lol some tall kid that i have never talked to or even sat with on the bus lol ... aija told me that ... like he told his sister that he liked me or something ... and i thought to my self ... how can you like somone you dont no ... like i havent ever talked to this kid ... i dont even no his name lol but im sure after he talks to me ... if he ever does he will change his mind ... just like the way he is he seems shy lol ... its weird... like i dont remember this ever happening to me before ... i mean andrew liked me before i like really knew him but just cuz like he saw me around jp and stuff ... but like i talked to him ... i dunno itll be interesting to see what happens...


umm yea and today i went for a walk with will and clyde it was fun and then i went to wills house and hung out with him for awhile ... then he dropped me and clyde off at my house and then iwent to kristyns and hung out with angie and kris it was fun lol we played mario party ... we didnt finish it tho we will nother time ...

i asked my mom if aija could sleep over on thursday and my mom said maybe... i dunno what im doing ... i wanna do my work but like i dont i wanna listen to music


OMG ITS SUNNY STILL AND ITS 7:04 LOL YEA HOLY CRAP ... im just weird lol o well

ttyl love you

chell

Thought of you at... |7:04:00 PM|

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mehyhhhhh

my tummy hurts and i wanna run ... wheres angie... not at my house thats where... she musta stayed after for extra help ... hmmm my tummy hurts ...oke someone do my laundry and my uhh whatever else so i can go for a walk ... yea ... o well im gonna go ttyl bye

Thought of you at... |3:22:00 PM|

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wow im mad at joe...

teh he doiesnt wanna be seen with me and melissa because his new "lover" is here now yea ... i wish i was that cool to ditch my friends because ... i dunno maybe beacuse we arent hott girls... and maybe its because i told him i dont want his nuts ... o well ... teh i dotn need him or his stupid ness ... thats just retarded... o yea angie is coming over tonight and we are gonna do work and that ... and i wanna go running but i dunno how cold or watever it is .. andi need to work on my chem project and question of hte week because .. i havent done any this hole quarter ... yea ... and i have to look up the weather ... yea soo ... im gonna go ... bye

... love ya

chell

Thought of you at... |11:55:00 AM|

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Sunday, April 04, 2004

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omg im so excited for aija ... she so has a new bf he seems so cute lol aww shes all excited im so happy for her .. but now i must find an emo boy to fuck

Thought of you at... |6:31:00 PM|

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It's a faster growing green
That flows through these leaves
I have, I try
I guess we'll be alright

Way to try
I got a line for you from me, better nice
A beautiful baby blue sky that's looking up at you
Now watch it fade away

But it's okay to come around
When nights like this are never ending
I tried so hard to make this perfect
You and I somehow
We can't see eye to eye together
We always knew that you worked better

I know you want it all and you got me
Sorry I never was everything you ever dreamed
But kept at bay for just in case that day

But it's okay to come around
When nights like this are never ending
I tried so hard to make this perfect
You and I somehow
We can't see eye to eye together
We always knew that you worked better

I don't want you to love me anymore

With my bags packed and ready to go
Nothing's ever hurt so much for me than to let you go
With my bags packed and ready to go
Nothing's ever hurt so much for me than to let you go


lyrics to new bacground song

fyi for those who dont no

its baby blue by the early november

Thought of you at... |11:57:00 AM|

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awake and relized ... i slept an extra hour

lol yea todays daylight savings shit or watever... and i was like what the fuck boy its like 9 what the hell are you doin im still sleeping and then i look at the clock on my phone and it says ten and i was like wow maybe i should be up lol ... o well

i wanna go running where the hell is angie ....

im actually pretty darker than i was like yesterday at this time ... ooo its magic..

what the hell did you no its gonna rain for another fuckin eight days ... im gonna die with out sun like i like rain as much as the next person but really ... ive had enough cuz i like when it down pours and stuff and its just drizzly and dumb yea gayyyy lol anyways ...

JIFFY MY LUBE lol yea i saw that in melissa blog lol i was so confused and i laughed so hard .. speaking of the devil i tried to call her last night or was it this morning ... o well and like i got her voice mail so she must of ran out of minutes ...


i need to do some fucking homework but i really really wanna go for a run ... yea but ill do that later maybe ill do it with angie if i find her DAMN YOUANGIE WHERE ARE YOU ...

o well im gonna go

ttyl

love chell

Thought of you at... |10:58:00 AM|

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Saturday, April 03, 2004

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yea ....

so i set up angie a nice new blog.. its soooo hott .. i love doing that stuff like html and tat its fun... well itsjust a template but i still had to edit the code and stuff and i had to get her all the cool things i got her ...

yea so i have nothing to do tonight ... when i went running today i was all wet and cold and stuff brrr... i like had so much fun ... well i didnt really run .. i skipped lol its like running but it works your thighs but i did run a quarter of a mile i wanted to do more but i was concerned about angie cuz she sounded like she was gonna die so i told her we need to start running everyday ... i love fucking runing ...

yea ... so anyways ... i dunon what im gonna do tonight ...

i love my friends tho ... they keep me occupied and like its so cool cuz i have multiple of them and everyone ofthem is differnet so everythign i do is different .. it so exciting lol yea and like im trying to keep angie on task i wanan go get my permit with her .. yea fuck yea ... and like we like goin running and we could help eachother with work ... and then will is like awesome and we go and do stuff and just be goof balls .. and aija and kristyn are always there for me and like its so awesome ... i love all of my friends.. this is wat i was missing when i was with adam ... he was like my everything .. and he wasnt fufiling everything i wanted so it made me sad ...but now i have everyone covering all of my fronts ... hooray .. i love you all sooo much you dont even understand it ... thanks for being there for me guys through everything with adam ... even when i was being stubborn ... and i just have to get everything in order and that and ill be fine...

my tan is starting to show .. .my face is like burnt red ... well not like my face isnt burnt its like red is brown like tan colored i guess lol its darker than the rest of my body .. but its always like that ... o well ... i cant wait till my tan comes out all the way ...

omg im gonna be so sore tomorro ... lol all taht skipping and running and walking ... it really takes alot out of you lol .. this is a long post of me just talking wow .. lol who cares ... i no i dont ... and if you care then read it if not just fuck you ... teh fuck you if you odnt like my written... and fuck you if you dont care .. if you dotn careabout me why should i care about you teh ass holes ...

lol i just totally went off lol o well i dont care HAH

o well

i love you all (my friends not the assholes that dont like my rambling)

love

chell

Thought of you at... |7:17:00 PM|

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im at wills ... yea

umm yea i went tannign this morning and now i dont look tan ... lol like usually you would think that after you go tanning you come back tan ... im just weird... penguins!!!!!<~~written by will .. yea so then i went running with angie and we skipped for like three quarters of a mile and then i light jogged a quarter of a mile .. yea so me and will watched mall rats .. once my cousin walter got a cat stuck up his ass... true story .. it was in the news and everything... yea .. and after the hole incident he did it again ... and just recently i saw ihim in the malll and i asked him why he would do it agian .. and he said how else am i supposed to get the girble out (lol i hope thats how you spel gerbile ... i mean damnit fuck it ) anyways yea lol my mom is gonnapick me up and im gonna eat steak... i had spaghetti from last night for breakfast.. ok bye

love chell

Thought of you at... |4:06:00 PM|

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MUHAHAHAHAH i am sooo cooolll... that doesnt look cool with all those llls lol

o well umm anyways ... yesterday was fun ass (ive been so much happier lately) o well aija dragged me out of shop to get a manicure it came out nice untill i smudge it when i was cleaning up for shop yea damn when is this rain gonna end i want some damn sun ... well after that me and aija talked on the bus ... so then later i went to kristyns and played mario party 5 and then her mom was like o would you like to come to dinner chell and i was like hellyea and then she was like ok well im on my way to pick up angie so go ask your mom if you can come ... (that wasnt her exact word but watever) umm then i ran home got some money and came back ... yea and angie came ... then will called lol and i gotta call him this morning some time cuz i wanna hang out with him ... he was gonna hang out woth rob but he wanted to "stop by and see me " lol yea and then angie and will talked or watever i hope i get to hang out with will and his friend nick that nick kid is so funnie yea ..i gotta call him some time this morning right so then this morning i gotrta go tanning with angie i wonder if she wants her shit back from when she slept over... all i ask her yea ... so i almost won mario party but kirstyn one cz she got special stars like serious i had 3 stars i totally though i had it ...o well umm i think im gonna go take a shower and like then get some clothes on and watch my music dvd and if angie dont call me by like 1130 im gonna call her and wake her ass up lol

ok love you all bye

Thought of you at... |9:08:00 AM|

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Friday, April 02, 2004

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these are some skins that i think are hott... for like angie yea ...

http://blogskins.com/apply.php?sid=9680&action=Preview <~~ this one changes colors its soo hot

http://blogskins.com/apply.php?sid=1409&action=Preview <~~ this one is black and pink oo

http://blogskins.com/apply.php?sid=2480&action=Preview < this one has that guy ashton kutcher from like that 70's show and punked its a hot pick damn hes soo gorgeous

http://blogskins.com/apply.php?sid=1043&action=Preview < ~~ i like this one ... its blue

http://blogskins.com/apply.php?sid=4855&action=Preview < this is cute

http://blogskins.com/apply.php?sid=5646&action=Preview < cute but kinda plain



http://blogskins.com/apply.php?sid=1204&action=Preview <~~ this one is blue too

http://blogskins.com/apply.php?sid=981&action=Preview << this one changes colors too

Thought of you at... |11:51:00 AM|

[[meh]]

shop is good today ... yea umm i had fun last night with the little perverts lol ... yea they is some crazy kids ..lol... i wanna go tanning but i told kristyn that i would hang out with her today... yea and im gonna play mario party 5 its gonna be awesome... and yea im gonna he happy ... yea but i dunno i guess me angie and kristyn cant all play together till like friday... i dunno my plans are still in a bit of disarray ... o well ill fix that when i talk to angie on the bus yea hell yea im gonna keep my self busy .. somone called my phone last night and left a message but i could understand who it was ... so ;yea ... i think it was will ... maybe i will call him and ask ... last night i was gonna but i didnt get home until quarter past 10 yea so im gonna go ttyl bye

Thought of you at... |8:45:00 AM|

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Thursday, April 01, 2004

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Since day one you've been away
And since then you've, you've made me stay
Alone in a world where I'd like to hear
The words of approval ringing in my ear

Cuz I don't ask for much
Yet I want it all.
I've gained nothing from this
You want to see me fall

But, we'll stick to our passions
We'll keep playing far and away
Alone in a world where I'd like to see
The smile on your face which means security

Cuz I don't ask for much
Yet I want it all.
I've gained nothing from this
you want to see me fall

Don't live life by the norm in society
Do what you have to do to keep you happy
And what if it doesn't add up to them at all?
It makes sense to you, keep on, don't stall

Don't live life by the norm in society
Do what you have to do to keep you happy
And what if it doesn't add up to them at all?
It makes sense to you, keep on, don't stall

Cuz I don't ask for much
Yet I want it all.
I've gained nothing from this
you want to see me fall

glasseater -- alone in the world

Thought of you at... |10:10:00 AM|

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hello... i dont have much to talk about ... im in a better mood... teh its like a fuck you mood like ... fuck off fuckers im awesome... yea like that ... i just finished my flowchart... and i hope i got it right ... mrs lew isnt checking it today tho so its gonnna be weird lol everyonen is being weird and loud and everyone is like getting yelled about for being loud... somone should find me a new guy lol ... im too lazy its so much damn work ... o yea me and angie are going to deans tonight .. hell yea lol hes like no parties witht he cosomopolitan lol hes such a retard... did you no you cant say nipple on the radio... lol thats fucked up lol o well anyways i gotta go and start my gay program ... lol im excited for tonight i hope its like not boring like blah lol ok im gonna go ttyl bye

Thought of you at... |9:59:00 AM|

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