holy muffins im thinking of my ex muffin : /

damnit all why cant i stop thinking about him ... i just like wanan call him and ask him if he wants to play with me cuz fuckin no one else will ... and my dad walks in and is like i talked to adam ... and im like thats cool and i got all teary what the fuck why am i so like ... hung up over him ... its fucked up ... cuz hes nto and its realy hurting me ... and i no no one cares anymore but i do ... what the fuck ... sigh ... i least i still ahve my journal to bitch in cuz im trying not to bitch to my friends too much because ... i dotnw ant what happened to me and adam to happen between me and my friends ... because without my friends i would like be all weird and crazy ... er yea so i duno im all depressed and such im still excited for the show ... wow i havent like wrote this much about adam in a while ... FUCKING ANYWAYS


yea so me and kristyn were talkinga botu shows we wanna go to and i definately wanna see thrice and dc and the warped tour omg i like 20 bands that are like going or watever like kristyn sent me a list and kristyn wants to go because the sounds and somone else is playing lol and shes gonna think about not going to the vines and go to the warped tour instead and iwas like hell yea it would be aweomse but she said she had that john may may show the day after what the hell like htat is even gonna be that bad lol o well i think im gonna do something .. but i guess me and ashely might be going to dots with her mom if she ever calls me back ... ok ttyl

love ya

chell