yea so i feel like crap ... like not emotionally i just feel sticky cuz its humid out and i have another cold sore ... wtf yea friday ... lol yea aija slept over last night cuz i dunno she could and we just chilled out in the boat just floating listening to the noises of a monday night ... i didnt seem like a monday nights sounds tho ... o well it was good we didnt gethome till like 900 and like i had to get the boy in bed and this morning was a bitch cuz i had to wake up aija mike and dad ... my dad like threw the clock on like the chair cuz it was goin off and i like draged and beat the boy so hed get up and i just making alarm clocks go off so aija would wake up ... and i was tired and shit so i dindt take a shower cuz i had to get everyone up ... so yea i feel all icky o well ill get over it ... but im tired and im kinda looking forward to my mom coming home ... she brings order to the house ... its so hard to control them but my mom is like the supreme allied comander so they listen better to her than me im just like ... shit they are like shut thefuck up chell go away ... but yea umm im gonna find something to do i think we really are gonna watch a movie ... and today kristyn is going to a show and she invited me to go but i cant cuz my moms not home ... *sob* thats dumb i thought the show was on tomorrow shit i coulda gone fuckin a o well ... damnit that makes me made o well now im gonna go and do something ...

My friend,
You're always the last one to leave those dimly lit rooms
Making sure the last glass makes it's way to the table empty
And every bottle in the place has been upside down
At least a few times
What a waste
Is this what's left of you these days?

You're not 18 anymore
5 years should have been enough time
For you to grow up and get over this
It's not too cool
To be throwing up all morning
Sick from what you might have done or done it with

I swear,
If I could take your pain and frame it and hang it on my wall
Maybe you wouldnever have to hurt at all
I'm painting pictures in red and blue
A portrait bruised just like you
And now you're walking away

You're not 18 anymore
5 years should have been enough time
For you to grow up and get over this
It's not too cool
To be throwing up all morning
Sick from what you might have done or done it with

When is enough finally enough?
All the hang-ups and heartbreaks get you past all failures and bad breaks
Just accept yourself
Find something that brings you closer to complete

Painting pictures in red and blue
A portrait bruised just like you
And now you're walking away

You're not 18 anymore
5 years should have been enough time
For you to grow up and get over this
It's not too cool
To be throwing up all morning
Sick from what you might have done or done it with

When is enough finally enough?
When is enough finally enough?