i wish they had an emotion for that ... yea like today was like theeee best let down and was just really weird and akward ... it just was like one disapointment after another ... and like i dont know how to feel about stuff ... like its weird ... but like im so sad i wanna cry hard core and aijas like shes gonna yell at me and i was like i dont even no what the hell you are talkinga botu im not in a bad mood ... yea i bought ticks to skate fest but i duno if i can even go so its like wtaever ... so i blew my paycheck on that but like im so empty right now its like i should be doing something but im not ... why not i could but i didnt and i should so no we are in the hosue at midnight when we dont even have to be ... no one is here ... my heart feels broken ... im sorry if my statements dont mak any sense its like my brain is runing sooo fast and its like im sooo quiet i dont even wanna talk im just silent .... and its cuz like i dont no what to thihnk ... seeing aija and will like that was really .... weird .... i like i wicked like hanging out with josh ... i kinda wish it was just like me and him tho ... but like i duno what the hell thats all about .... i dont no im so ... hysterical and no one isaround to talk to ... no one wants to talk to me baout shit like this its too sad to talk about ... dont bring shit like this into conversations ... its impolite ... i like feel like i just got busted for doing something bad ... but i didnt ... like i feel all anxious and scared ... and confused like what am i gonna do ... i dont have any fucking money and my mom is bringing me shopping ... no money at all i dont no what im gonna do ... o man .... somone please call me .. ill be up all night tweaking out ... it would be cool to hear a calm colected voice ... but thtas just me

so yea im out i guess