ok so yea .. my dad comes in hes all effed up and fucking mumbling stupid shit that i have no idea what the hell he is talking about ... sometimes i wish he could see himself ... he is so much of a better person .. I FUCKING HATE DRUNK PEOPLE i hate people altogether right now ... i just like wanna jump off a pier with cement blocks tied to my ankles ... i hate everything ... its soo irritating ... i fucking hate it ... i hate how people treat me ... and talk to me and ... i dont even no im just so pissed and depressed and shit its soo fucking retarded WTF IS WRONG ... i dont understand how ican just fucking go from so estatic one day and the next feel like complete and total shit ... is teenage hormones really realy this fucking bad ... god damn this fucking suck ... this must be why suicide is one of the most leading causes of death of teenagers ... this shit is crazy ... why am i being wicked crazy ... why ... why cant i just be like ... content... just content that would be great ... or like something ... im so flustered and ... sigh ... i dunno like ... i dunno i was thinking to my self earlier

like how when we are young and niave we trust everyone our parents and grandparents and everyone just anyone we would me ... then you meet the bastards and people that fuck you up and your never the same again ... and then you will see the true faces ofyour heros ... the shitty fucks that created you ... and you can tell that if you never came about they would still be out partying with their friends ... their lives would be soo much fucking easier without you ... and you can tell this when you get older and they are more likely to let their gaurd down and forget that they are putting on a show until they think its good and alright ... when people are so nice to you when your little ... i cant even talk to my grandparents because they dont accept me for who i am ... even tho like im not really anything all that different i effing dyed my hairwhatever thats soo messed up i hate people especialy fake ones

i understand that you may not understand my point but as long as i have said that i feel a whole shit load better