lol im not like mad its jsut liek this is the 8th time trying to get to this one spot on the internet and im finally posting lol on to wat i was trying to say ...

Everytime i look at u i wanna kill, i wanna kill
Stranger things that i would do to make u feel the way i feel
Its just that i have been broken so many thousand times
and everytime i start again i wonder why, wonder why
Its been such a hard year, it wont ever change
My heart isnt cold now, Its not what it seems because
you say to me your heart feels far away
im lovesick now.
Everytime i look at u i wanna die, wanna die
Stranger things that i would say to make u feel the way i feel
Its just that i have been broken so many thousand times
And everytime i start again i wonder why, wonder why
Its been such a hard year, it wont ever change
My heart isnt cold now, its not what it seems because
You say to me your heart feels far away
Now day by day i start to realize that nothings gonna change
so i became
it doesnt really matter anyway
its not what it seems to me, because
you say to me your heart feels far away
Im lovesick now.

so yes ... i fucking love music i need to see senses fail on the 24th ??? thats when i think it is and aija said that taking back sunday and atreyu are going to conneticut so like i wanna go see tbs cuz i never ever seen them ... o man and like one of the girls i was with at the show was telling me that atreyu is like nuts ... but i eraly just wanna see tbs ... i only like a little bit of the little bit of them that ive heard ... lol if that makes sense ... o man kris thanks for the cds ... im listening to saves the day lol ... i have like 5 cds today that are new ... so .. ummm yea .. im wicked sniffly i feel all sick and stuff but im still in a good mood ... and i have to work today with becky which is pimp i guess lol but i wish josh could come visit me at work cuz that would be wicked wicked pimp ... but hedoesnt have a car lol ... so wahtever and will came over at like 930 and brought mr.bob a new tank its soo effin pimp its got a light and like a filter deal its soo cool i hope he lieks it... but he didnt seem too happy about like us moving him around so much lol ... trust me i no a happy fish when i see one lol ...umm what else ... uhh ... im tired .... and im like in a goodish mood i think ... and im eatng chocolate why... bahhh why am i eating this shit blahhh..lol ill give it to aija ... hmm

i wanna write down what im thinking ...

right now i wanna be in a feild on a warm summer day and just feel it start to cool off with a light breeze ... like almost toward nightfall ... and watch the the sky go from blue to orange and purple in somones arms


... yea o man i wanna go tanning ... tanning feels like sitting on the beach lol its cool cuz like you just close your eyes and pretend your at the ocean ... sooo awesome ... i really like pulling apart these candy bars lol... that reminds me of supertroopers ... iwanna fucking watch that movie o man its soo awesome lol rightnow !!!!!.... ok well ..imgonna go now ...i htink il prob pop in and out and wriet more shit or throw in some lyrics and then no one will even read this post ... not that it had any importance at all ... but watever ... maybe somone might care ... maybe ...