i feel soo shitty ... dont ask me why but i ... dunno ... i hate re reading old posts lol dont even ask me why i do it ... they make me look wicked dumb ... o man i feel so fucking dumb ... i wishi knew what i know now ... that whole adam thing was such fucking bullshit and i no theres like 2309843 people sitting there reading this and thinking yea ... shes totally right and i even told her that when she was with him ... i just feel really uncomfortable wiht myself ... i wanna go back to sleep forever and never come out of my room just fucking hide in my room i wish i felt better ... i need to go someplace warm ... i want everything to be ok ... just ok ... it would be nice ... im so worried about college ... i need to fucking apply but i keep putting it off sooo bad .... i feel neglected ... i really wish i used proper grammar when i wrote this ... maybe i will ... not fuck o well im out bitches bye...

im going to cut these loveless wrists
cuz my head sure hurts today..
take another 20 pills to try and make my troubles go away...away
why waste time
lifting my head
i'll keep it downsave face instead
i once felt strong
it wouldt last for long
wrap my hands around my neck
kill myself again
cut my arms with the
biggest knife that i can stand
stand in line for days and nights
making up lost time
this is how i feel
It's more then i can stand