i decided to start writting again. not because i thought like o man i should write, its just because i dont have a life. pretty much. yea . i never really realized it until now. The summer before i go to college and i have but two real friends that i hang out with, one of which is my boyfriend. like why dont people like me. is it just because im just like not fun to hang out wiht , am i lame, like wtf rrrr what is rong with me ... i dont understand at all i just awnna cry all the time cuz everyone is out having fun with their friends and when i say everyone i mean the two peopleihang out with ... i guess im just lame that i dont have any friends of my own to even call if im having a problem cuz they are out busy partying or too busy worry about themselves .. yea i guess i am kinda selfish ...maybe imjust destined to live life lonely ... watever ... ill be coollike my mom who hangs out with her like 2 friends about 3 times a year ... wow what a sad existance i live ...