trying to fix my comp its ridiculous and im chilling wit aija and kris and i dunno just chillin and nomar is being traded to chicago
yea so my comp is kinda working i think and its really nice out the moon is full and i went 4wheeling and go karting today it was kick ass and i hit a stump and bent the rim on the tire of the go kart but it was fuckin awesome and i like got the go kart stuck on the swing set ... but other than that it was kick ass i was covered in dirt and i loved it i dont do shit like that usually and now im chilling watching beavis and butthead ... yea its nice im in a good mood its great
yea ok my comp has been really really really effed up and it takes like 5 mins for each page to load which is really really ridiculous but ill tell you wat happened ...
in fast bullet form
but i do no that ... i woke up at 100 ish because aija was hyperventalating in my phone .. but watever ... so yea i guess me and her and joe are all going out to the movies ... on sunday which is uber cool and like im sooo sick of babysitting its ridiculous ... like o man i have to do it tomorro and i totaly dindt clean jeffs house cuz i woke up wicked wicked late ... and i have to babysit on a saturday night wtf ... but yea and im babysitting in webster which isnt that that bad ... but yea i hung out with kristyn today cuz im cool and cool and we listened to her bright eyes cd which is major kick ass and im going there at like 8 to watch degrassi with her and im gonna bring aija wether she likes it or not ... yea and ummm i dunno nothing really truly exciting ... my blog is all effed up and stuff which is uber ridiculous ... and its like grr i dont even feel like fucking dealing with uhh fixing it cuz its bs and my comp at home is being wicked dumb ... like seriously o yea im gonna put music on here ok im out ... love ya bye ...
lol this just straight up tells you how awesome you can be even if you watch pokemon ... i mean dom watches it and hes preatty cool right?lol whatever but yea now im kinda missing my icecream ... and i totally switched my blog all around cuz i had nothing better to do obviously ... o man and that greg kid totally like called me and i was like err uhh im eating bye and hung up lol ... i think he is gonna try and call me back later .... yea eck ... but watever i like my new blog ... the pic its soo hott its liek i could just dive into those warm tropical waters mmm it would be sooo awersome ... but yea uhh im gonna go and find something to do ... even tho i no i wont ... fuckin a i wish i had some ice cream ... andi have to wait till like 1030 till i can have some ... S O B ... but i guess den is coming over tomorro but not to help me ... but watever im not wicked worried about it i have to babysit tomoro anyways just dom and just till like seven or watever teh i dotn care ... o well im sooo outtie like woootttt
o man its sooo good it hurst but its soo bad it makes me sick blahhhh ... but watever im just straight up chillin with my home dawg dominic and i havent heard a werd from that greg kid lol ... o well its kinda good this way maybe he got the hint ... that would be good at least i dindt have to feel like an ass just he didl... im such an ass lol but in a good way... in a conceited asshole way ... yeap im soo cool ... but yea i met my new doctor shes cool ... really religious but cool she kept telling me all about how i should wait to have sex till im marriend and stuff and how god is the only path that will lead me the riht way and to study and not worry about a job just study ... and how the ten commandments would set everyone straight ... she seemed so nice and sincere tho ... shej was a short indian looking woman very nice ... just too religious for my blood i guess .l.. but i only i have to see her once a year ... sigh .. but yea i got some ice cream and now i feel all sick and im gonna be bored tonight because i have no one to chill with except for dominic but im gonna be out ... love ya bye
o yea i read 4 out of the 6 books now ...
all i have left is teh ones i have to read for school
so yea i bought 6 books today and i read all of the fear and loathing in las vegas book ... good good shit and im reading this book smack and im half way through it .. o man i love to read ... it just too bad i dont have enough time to do it more often like during school unless its assigned ... and i signed up for the sats again ... and my parents have been fighting over college so yea ... i duno what im gonna do i really really need to get my sats score higher ... like really bad so i can go to lyndon state and my mom all wants me to write a 500 word essay ... wtf ... lol yea i was like yea mom ill do that right away .. but watever i dunno this shit is sooo effed up .. and my eyes are all like blurry and shit because i havent been reading with my glasses so then like i just put them on and now i can see its nice and im dizzy cuz i seriously sat down for like 4 hours and jsut read that hole book and didnt even move but that smack book i read alot of it outside and its wicked fucking awesome ... but yea now im just gonna chill and get my book and read it some more ... lol yea i have no life but its cool cuz when i read its like i go on vacation but not like a shitty vacation with my family ... i dunno that sounds corny ass but watever your gay
ok like all these pics are just some of my senior pics ill put more on later
me and aija are soo hott and cool just check us out ... werd 
ok 
ok 
yea so uhh i just fucking woke up ... fucking a ... not cool im wicked pissed about that ... but i guess the highlight of my day today is that im going to the bank ... yea fucking excitement o yea i think im doing that college thing teh like tahts fuckin gonna happen ... teh im so fucking like gonna bebored all day ... why dont i have more friends ... wtf ... errr i hate myself ...
whatever
OK CUZ LIKE NO ONE FUCKING UNDERSTANDS AND WHEN THEY TRY TO IT JUST MAKES ME MAD ... AND LIKE JUST FUCKING LEAVE ME ALONE AND ILL JUST FUCKING SHUT THE HELL UP AND NEXT TIME I OPEN MY MOUTH AND BTICH ABOUT SOMETHIG JUST TELL ME TO SHUT THE FUCK UP
lol yea it was that bad today ... this is how it went...
ok so i wake up around 11 ish to find out my parents left to help jeff paint his house ... even tho i specifcally told them not to... and like ditched me even tho we had to talk abotu college stuff ... but watever ... so like dean called and hes like comover now so like we hurried up and came whatever ... so like we went to price chopper and left and we started towards sharis when chad calls and is like hey im up ... so whatever we went and picked him up and we went to like sharis moms house ....
so yea it was awesome a really really nice house wickednice ... and they had theee best fucking paddle boat ever it could fit 5 people and it had like eight hundred cup holders it was fucking sweet and like well we took it out and all brought fucking drinks cuz we are Peeemp... so like yea then we were driving around and i couldnt get the steering right because im fucking retarded lol and aija did it and then we like saw this bird and i thought it was real but it wasnt it was fake and aija wanted to get it it was wicked funnie and like chad and me paddled and stuff i dunno it was wicked fun and like then we docked the boat lol ...
we went in the huge ass pontune boat thing o man soo peemp and like i just chilled on the boat with chad cuz hes all cripple and stuf and i didnt wanan look bad to meet this kid or watever ... i didnt wanna look like a skeez bag lol ... so watever and aija swam and we jsut chiled on the boat for like ever even after it was docked and we waited for that kid to come and aija was like o man im gonna pretend to be michelle and it was funnie cuz when he came like dean was liek this is aija and im like dean wat the fuck thats michelle ..o well i guess you had to be there but yea this kid ... was like eck ... but i dunno he didnt talk he looked like he was 14 not even ... it was fucked ... eck but watever and shari was like wtf was dean thinking lol
so then we left there and like went to wills and like all his roomates were trashed...
i dont feel like righting anymore im sad
ok check out this pic it has nhs careers on the shirts ... and if you have seen our national honor society you would no why this is sooo hilarious ... 
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Originally uploaded by michelle95839849.
ok well im just chillin here with aija and like we just got done watchin all of my music dvds ... o man hottness ilove fucking the guys from senses fail sooooo hott but ywa anyways im just totally like chilling here and trying to get a pic of some cows up itll be soo funnie once i explain to you how awesome i really am .... yea just that awesome ... i kinda have a headache tho ... it cuz i havent like eaten anything at all today and barely ate anything yesterday ... its good tho cuz i eat too much all the time anyways ... but yea
that greg kid is gonna call me again today ... it amuses me ...
but yea umm i duno aija and chad are totally cool with comin with me tomorro i just hope they come ontime because aija has a problem doing that alot ... its like in her blood lol but yea im sooo cooll ... and stuff ... bu i have to babysit later and that uber blows and yea it sucks cuz will just got like a shit load of movies and i cant watch them with him and aija is gonan go and hang otu with chad even tho like she is supposed to find the video recorder and clean her room ... but o well one day it will get done o well im out tho cuz im doing something more important ok love ya bye
yea so lol this greg kid called me again ... i think he nos alot about me ... it just seems that way by the way he talks to me ... lol stuff like this makes me laugh like random guys interested in my that i hardly no ... it kinda is a combination of mike anderson and alex kinda guy so far ... just from talking to him on the phone lol ... but i mean yea ... whatever its weird like it seems like we just picked up in the middle of a conversation that has been going on for weeks ... and hes gonna call me back ... wat the dilly o .... lol o man im soo awesome but watever im i a good mood and hoping that aija and will get here eventually and aija was in the bathroom when i called her to tell her were i was at lol ... but she probably feels like im wicked bugging her but i totally want some teenage people action im sick of the little children and adult action ... whatever tho so yea now im just chillin at carols on deans comp ... wich is better than not chillin on a comp ok but watever im totally o u t out biznitches
umm yea so nextweek ill be living my summer up true michelle style ... by doing absolutely nothing fun ... cuz i have nolife lol this is how next week looks ...
monday .... sitting on my ass
tuesday .... sitting on my ass
wednesday ... babysitting till the next day
thursday... babysitting till the next day
friday ... babysitting till the next day
saturday... babysitting till the next day ...
sunday ... recovering from those little fuckers
bahhhh
yea so this kid randomly calls me yesterday at fucking sharis and im like uhh ... hello and hes like hey and im like uhh hi and then i say whose this and hes like hey its greg ... lol like he knows me and im o k im like o yea that kid that dean nos yea hehe how are you and hes like alright and im liike o thats cool are you working now and he said yea and was like o thats cool and i like stuterd for like ten minutes thinking about how pissed i was how dean would put me on the spot like that ... fuckin dean lmao but yea so then i was like did youw anan talk to me about something and hes liek i kinda wanted to meet you and i was like ok well talk to dean abotu that i have no idea wtf is going so yea .. lol umm tell dean that and the i said ok im gonna go not ill ttyl (after stuttering for like 10mins) lol and hes like yea cya and i was WTF DEAN so i went back to watching catch me if you can ... good movie and then like dean came home and i was like thanks dean and he was liek wat i told you i was gona give you his number he keeps asking abotu you and im like wtf ... and then dean was liek "he said you have a nice voice" and i was liekl uhh people have told me it sounds like nails on a chalk board lol and why is this guy so awesome why doesnt he have a chick so this is my plan to make things not so weird and akward lol ....
im gonna bring aija and chad (if those fuckers can come) to this like cookout dean is liek throwing and like the only reason he is , is for us lol so its like uhh yea dean ... hes a good guy he means well i just duno its gonna be weird maybe o well im outtie tho ... shiznit
i wanna scan my pics so i can show them to the internet the are hottt with three t's
yea it was pretty sweet we all like went to go and pick of the pics but lol they werent ready and tahen we couldnt decide were to go out to eat cuz like we had no money so like we decided to go to out back and mooch lol so we all got like the littlest stuff on the menu like cheapest shit and just kept getting refills on drinks lol and then like this couple felt bad for us so they gave up the rest of their like fried onion bal thing lol it was good all the food that we ate was good it was funnie and we were all being dumb and stuff ... as usual and then like i dunno we left there and got a movie and we watched the last samuri and i couldnt like pay attention through all of it cuz ... im all not having a long atention span ... so then will left cuz he had to work and then me and aija went for a walk it was good we discussed the varying degrees of hotness with guys and how there are different levels and then we talked about her moving out for a bit then i went home and watched tv ... it was a good ending to a good day cept for the boredom part and i wish i got up earlier today so i coulda cleaned jeffs so i would have money but i didnt and i dont even think he is home so whatever ... tehh ... so im fucking broke ... and i have no money to pick up those pictures with so yea ... lol yea but watever im gonna go and do something constructive ...
love ya
yea so right now im listening to the hott beatz of mozart ??? lol its actually pretty nice and relaxing to ttell you the truth ... yeap its good tho cuz its rainy and im just like reading and listening to this classical stuff it reminds me of going to barnes and nobles ... shit i wanna go there soon and pick up some new books but yea im like waiting for will and aija to like come and save me from my boredom but like this hole moving aija into wills apartment is like ... making them worry about that ... i dont think aija wil be able to do it but watever ... o well im out i guess im gonna go find something else to read ... love ya bye
nothing exciting really but me and will chilld and i droped of the pics and hung out with aija and chad for a bit and i got my senior pics they look hott so yea im out bye
soo effed i can only explain it in small exciting phrases lol such as this ...
saturday ...
drama
pics
movie at like 1130
we were at the movies on sunday morning
whale vagina
chasing drunk drivers
comin home at 2 oclock
sunday ...
woke up early ass
just chilled
aija rushed my ass over to meet a guy
he was trashed and puking and chad was flippin out
off duty cop asked wat was up next thing i no me and aija are walking around and see a ambulance were we were with chad and john ...
hiding out at wills
geting questioned by his mom
going to aijas
walking home
getting pissed
getting icecream
watching a movie
yes i do waking up to there screams at like 7:00 in the morning is ridiculous i dunno how shari and dean can deal with it ... but yea i dunno i guess like dean is gonna set up some like bbq at sharis and invite this craig or greg or watever kid to it ... whatever that is about ... cuz i guess he thinks im uber single and i guess this kid is uber single ... but watever hes like aw man he is thee nicest kid ... hes only known him 2 weeks lol but watever ... uhh yea so around 3 ish im gonna have to go through the hell of babysitting again : / yes i no its ridiculous yea so im all tired and shit i didnt fall asleep until like 2 cuz like colin was yelling in his sleep about his dad and then matt got freaked out and was banging on his moms door crying and saying turn the light on ... it was something out of a horror movie let me tell you ... lol so yea umm im gonna go and chill and watch cartoons in my spare bit of free time that i have ... s o b lol ... ok so yea if anyone reads this and wants to save me from hell umm call my celly thanks babes
love ya
ok i got an almost busy day of doing crap i just dont wanna do ... this is how its gonna go ...
in like 15 mins i have to leave here to clean for 3 hours ... then ill have like an hour to my self to like do whatever and then i get to go watch the boys .... woo hoo lol yea im excited and then im sleeping over there cuz its easier for dean and shari that way ... and im gonna come home tomorro for a lil bit and thne im going back out there for the night again ... im free on saturday i have no idea what im doing or watever maybe ill get ahold of aija and make plans but i dunno she hasnt said anything about saturday plans ... but i havent really even mentioned it so yea ... but on sunday my mom and my dad and me are all gonna sit down and look at colleges together and then mike has a game i was gonna take my mom out to the movies but i dunno cuz of the game and everything but i dunno whatever ... so yea im out ttyl
i got up at like i dunno 1230 and hung out with will and we decided we wanted to go to the cape but i asked my mom and she said not without an adult if im staying out there for the night so i was liek wtf ... but watver im like uber bored and like kristyn isnt even home so i cant even go talk to her and i wanted to tak to her today too ... o well alright im out ttyl bye
now i dont have a bf i have an asshole friend its alot easier this way ... but im out i stank and need to shower
so yea umm this is how my day went
ok so yea i got to sleep in it was nice and i like waited for aija to come and do my hair she was a lil late but no big deal so we went to the pic place and they did my pics i hope they come out nice the dude there doing the pics was cool but like i dunno i just like gave him an attitude it was soo funnie... but good
so aija and me went back to the house and decided we didnt wanna stay thre no more so we left and decided to go to burger king cuz we got ten bucks ... so like on our way we stoped at the police station to see her mom cuz she was upset about trent so we talked to her and stuff so then we like left and went to burger king it was good ... then we went to her house and like chilled for a bit and i got bored and i wanted to go for a wakl so we did and we headed towards dudley but like turned around cuz it was like a pointless walk and aija was like ill show you were garrett lives so i was like alriht cool so we walked up towards that way and we saw his house watever ... and we just kept walking straight and we saw garrett and two of his friends and we talked to them for a while like garrett was all like being an ass and stuff so i was like teh watever i dont wanan deal with that ... so like me and aija decided to like go to chads so she could all like go and talk to him but garrett was like no we are hanging out with him so we like ran there to beat them but i was like wait ... they are dumb hes not gonna be here till like 7 and its 645 so watever like we all waited by his house till he caome home and like i dunno garrett was being dumb and like it was jsut retarded and i dunno it made me kinda mad ... and like he ignored my existance ... so i was all like .. watever ...
so finally chad comes out and talks to everyone and like garrett was like yea aija totally thinks your hanging out with her and everything and aijas like can i just talk to him and they are like no so like aija totally just like walked away and i followed her and we headed home and shes like wtf this is soo geey and stuff like that and i was like i no maybe they will follow us dont call your mom just incase they try to find us ... and like jsut as i was saying that chad pulled up behind us and i walked away so they could talk ... im a good friend like that ... and then like watever i guess shit is good i just dont feel like garrett likes being around me cept for when he like totally wants to be all up ons ... but watever i just kinda wanna talk to him ... yea so uhh ill ttyl love ya bye
i really dont ... this is ridiculous i dunno ... it makes me sick ... just everything im so sad right now... i just want somone to talk to i wanna go out for a walk and just have an awesome good talk but everyone is sick of all my stories that make no sense ... and sick of all my stupid anicdotes that are just plain ridiculous ... why cant i find somone to talk to me they dont like to talk they just listen and then they get sick of me talking ... teh i duno i just wanna talk to somone i wanna hear somones input on anything but watever... im just sad
I picked you out
Of a crowd and talked to you.
Said I liked your shoes,
You said, "Thanks, Can I follow you?"
So it's up the stairs,
And out of view. No prying eyes.
I poured some wine.
I asked your name;
You asked the time.
Now it's two o'clock.
The club is closed,
We are up the block.
Your hands are on me,
Pressing hard against your jeans,
Your tongue in my mouth,
Trying to keep the words from coming out,
You didn't care to know
Who else may have been you before.
I want a lover I don't have to love,
I want a girl who's too sad to give a fuck.
Where's the kid with the chemicals?
I thought he said to meet him here,
But I'm not sure.
I've got the money
If you've got the time.
He said, "It feels good."
I said "I'll give it a try."
Then my mind went dark,
We both forgot where your car was parked.
Let's just take the train.
I'll meet up with the band in the morning
Bad actors, with bad habits...
Some sad singers, they just play tragic.
And the phone is ringing,
And the van is leaving
Let's just keep touching,
Let's just keep...keep singing
I want a lover I don't have to love,
I want a boy who's so drunk he doesn't talk.
Where's the kid with the chemicals?
I got a hunger and I can't seem to get full.
I need some meaning I can memorize.
The kind I have always seems to slip my mind.
But you, but you...
You write such pretty words,
But life's no storybook.
Love's an excuse to get hurt.
And to hurt.
Do you like to hurt?
I do, I do.
Then hurt me,
Then hurt me,
Then hurt me...
- Bright Eyes
lol yea dont pay any attention to the title it has nothing to do with the story...
ok so yesterday ... o man it was an awesome day let me set the scene
it was a lovely saturday morning about like i dunno 5 ish and my dad walks in and tells me he is bringing my mom to the hospital ... i thought it was a dream but theni actually got up and my mom was gone i was like shit lol ... and i took a shower and woke aija up and was like damn my mom is in the hospital and she was like shit... in here half awake morning breath voice ...
so anyways we bounced from there to her house so we could eventually meet up with 'the guys' we got ready and wore our hott new outfits and aija did my hair all hott and we were so banging and i was like wow i dont even wanna stopp looking atmyself ... well not really but i can pretend lol ... so yea we waited and stuff but i talked to garrett on the phone for like a half hour and we decided that he was gonna wait for chad and leave with him so they could do watever ... so yea chad gets outta work at 1 ... and me and aija placed bets on what time they would come and i totally won lol they didn come until like 250 so we chilled until garrett had to leave at like i duno 415 which was cool i like hanging out with him but he was all tired from his adventure with chad which wasnt cool ...
so then it was just me aija and chad and we played tarot cards and like i guess bad shit is gonna happen ... teh nothing new i suppose ... and we fucked up chads cards so his was all like death and stuff lol and then we sat out and watched some of shainghi knights or watever then we left the house at like i udnno 530 so we left to go to the beach but chad totally wasnt havin it so he just went home to go and "sleep" teh watever lol uhh so we left to the beach and forgot you need money to get and see the shitty fireworks ... so we had to get a ride back with aijs cousin chase ... and we didnt get one back which was geyyy lol so we like chilled there and met up with like a shit load of people and like jen dexter is due next tuesday and we saw jeanna and she is already showing ... i dunno it was weird ... so whatever like i dunno wha else happened it must not have been important so then like i dunno jamie like ditched us or watever i dunno and we ended up watching fireworks with will but not all of then cuz like we spent half the time looking for aijas dad anyways ...
the fireworks sucked
but watever so then we went to wills car cuz the fireworks were over and we were gonna be like insominiac and do all this crazy shit ... so we went to bickfords and got milkshakes and we saw cindy martin but it was good i have a coffee one and will took a pick of me with cream all up ons my facelol funnie shit lol so yea then like aija drove wills car aroudn the parking lot at bickfords and i was like i wanna drive so like we went the the parking lot at the mall (its like i dunno 11 at night) and like so aija just kept cliping of the imaginary cars teh but teh i can drive like thee best lol i was like flying towards poles and like turning at the last second i was going like all fast and stuff it was funie lol but now im all motivated to get my permit lol ... but watever umm so yea so will was like thats enough so will taught me how to drive ... cool cool ...
so then we went to price choppers and like o yea me and aija went shot for shot with sugar packets lol soo funnie so yea me and aija were all hype on sugar and lol will bought a camera and he had his phone and we took a pic of me with a dog leash on and a bone in my mouth (its had to of been quarter of midnight) ok so then like o yea a pic of me and aija molesting teddy bears lol ... and then aija climbed into on of the freezers in price chopper and we closed the door and took a pic of her lol it was so funnie so then we like ran outta there ... and were out side and will was like i wanna push somone in a carrage so i jumpedinto a shoping cart and will pushed me and like let me go and i was all (by aija):"pussy and scarreed, and i suck garretts balls and they taste really good..." like o man holy shit dont let me crash into the cart thingy so will stoped it and then like i was getting out and aija like grabed it and like shook it and i almost fell and will took a pic of that lol so like there was somone parked in the parking lot with their lights on so we like ran into the car well not will he walked he never runs lol so yea
then we went to nichols college and aija like tried to roll down the hill but it was too steep and like this security cop pulled up and like just sat there and will is like uhh aija i think you should get up and lets go so we like pulled out and the cop followed us a little but like never asked wat we were doing it was wicked funnie
so then like i dunno we showed will hill street and we made him fly down the fucking hill and we like were off the ground and we like skidded out or watever it was wicked fun lol so then we didnt no what else to do and we got to the house it was like i duno like 1 ish and we like watched part of a movie and then will left and we went to sleep
it was an awesome night awesom awesome night
uhh yea so like 10 mins after i rote that post garrett called me and apologized and told me that he liked me .. and then asked me out ... so now i have a bf ? lol yea ok after tweaking about guys im kinda happy ... fucking a i hate being a teenager but at the same time it feels so good lol o man racing hormones ... its like thee best high you can get ...
im still hateing everyone with a penis ... yea ... well chad is cool i talked to him about some stuff and hes like yea thats fucked so i dunno .. i dunno whats going on and i dunno what to do ... but watever i really dont no why this is bugging me so much ... i kinda feel led on in a way but ... there wasnt but leding by the pacific party its more leading by my friends than anything else ... which is kinda sad cuz it could be rong and i could just be making a big deal out of nothing ... but watever im just pissed and frustrated and wishing that imature guys can be mature about some things ... yea that would be nice like serious but not ... but i dont care im so like i dunno no but im gonna look so hott tomorro that i wont think about some little emo boy ... teh ... that may sound skankish but now im doing it because i can because i no i can ... but watever ...
this air is contagious no one can save us
nothing this good could ever last
tonight is a drug that i wont give up
this is my favorite addiction
the summer comes to a close
and no one knows what we know
no one knows
i cant explain what made me stay
i fall into the same mistakes
like all good things they never last the past is past
id rather be drowning than swimming away
thats something that will never change
i swallow regret and hope for the best
if this is all that i can do
the summer comes to a close
and no one knows what we know
no one knows
i cant explain what made me stay
i fall into the same mistakes
like all good things they never last the past is past
this is why i never try
to make it seem we shouldnt leave
this is why i never try
this air is contagious no one can save us
i must confess im not impressed
theres nothing worse than losing you
i must confess im not the same
like all good things
i must confess im not impressed
theres nothing worse than losing you
i must confess im not impressed
theres nothing worse than losing you
i must confess im not the same
like all good things im losing you
ok this is how it is ... guys suck and confuse the fuck outta me ...i really dont no how else to say it ... like really tho ... i dont no how to think feel or act .. i hate this .. i hate guys.. i hate my life why do they have to be such a necessity likei cant even like not like guys its just like there its like a teenage hormone thing were i just wanna feel liked ... but i cant because im a stupid fucking teenage whore that doesnt no any better and that ass is better than a relationship... but its not ... i miss them really ... i just wanna be held ... i feel like so used right now .. but i totally brought it upon myself maybe single life just isnt for me .. i just i dont no ... i just wanna be liked for the right reasons by the right people is all ... but it never happens that way i have to suffer with a broken heart all the time ... i never get a break from it its allways there tearing little by little with every breath and sight of somone maybe somone ... but not no somone for me ... not today not next week not ever ... no ... guys just hurt they are assholes and designed to hurt if life was perfect then guys would be sweet and true and honest and love you for who you are not by the way you look and cherish the little things about you ... and not because you fucked them ... but thats how they are thinking with teh i dunno i just dont wanna be hurt or hurting anymore i just wanna be held
... i dunno just depressed not much to say
uhh aija didnt run
michelle: 8:45
im getting better
I'll be your friend in hell, until then I despise you. And I probably always will. I cant afford to make another mistake like this. Cause this is more than I can take. I don't mean to leave angry, this is by your own device. I'm sure this comes as no surprise.
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