like just everything ... just this weather reminds me of last year and how everything has changed ... im going to college my friends have jobs ... its crazy i cant believe this ... i feel soo weird ... like wow ... im really growing up ... i cant belive this ... i feel soo i dunno its surreal ... i was sittingn at the lake today watching children play and i was like wow ... i remember when i was their age ... and i had nothin to worry about cept that i had to go to school the next day ... and really thats all i have to worry about right now too ... but its soo weird like they are just laughing and playing with out a care ... wow ... and i wanted to drive up to bay path ... i wanna go for a run ... this weather reminds me of cross country last year and all the adventures i had last year ... wow ... its crazy ... i kinda wanna cry ... i dont wanan get in a sad mood i hate reminising ... lol cant spell ... but like seriously ... wow